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Sorry

Im so down on socialising usually and drinking ..

but im not totally.

Just want to say, i meet so many amazing people and friends when im out – normally i wouldnt.. but i do and you do..

.. i cant be down on this – i drink, you drink . we drink … some do drugs.. some do nothing.. we all enjoy the whole collective experience that is ” going out “

I* can be down on this, because i meet so much amazing people/… the honest man, the restlessman… the police van the fight ..whatever… but bad or good.. i have met some of the only and best people i know.

I CANT and refused to be down on this…. so many of you out there,, i just want you to know that you are part of my collective life… and i dont shine if you dont shine

Bouncers, bar people, friends and ex-girlfriends… you are part of my blazing sky that alights every morning.. and thats ok

so forget my trash.. i want to see you.. hungover, straight, drunk, fucked or whatever .. lets not make it any more difficult than  it is.

Unconditionally accepting yourself

Alcoholic ?

I wont be an alcoholic, ive decided not to be one.

You are yawning right now, youve heard me go on about being worried about my constant boozing and then when hungover i claim ” ok im quitting drinking “

.. but im seriously going to try

I remember back when i was 21, id come to a point where i had abused alcohol and other things and i was really on the brink of despair because of it, and i had a moment of clarity where i knew what needed to be done.

I stopped everything for 1 whole year! .. and i enjoyed that year big time, it wasnt some major deviation away from my social life and friends, i actually had more fun with them and did better things.

I put my energy into playing the guitar, my family, college, work and pretty much doing things that i enjoyed.

If i put as much energy into my art that i do with alcohol and going out – id have a great creative turn out.

so watch this space, because i have a week off at this point, and im about to jump into alot of ideas.

• im a drunk, sometimes i drink 4 days a week .. and i drink alot .. sabucca is my evil.
• I feel pickled most of the time and its not good.
• Thats why im quitting booze, because some people can control it and some people cant.
• Im one of the ones who cant and i understand this now, i dont want to end up or go the way my father went, who is an alcoholic and drinks so much whisky he starts hallucinating.
• If an element in your life is causing more grief than its worth, remove it.

Im CONFUSED!

I need some female input here, because im very confused about a certain thing called the 3 day rule.

3 day rule is when a girl / boy gives you his /her number and you dont call her until 3 days later.

Im really confused by this, but supposedly it works; so pretending you dont like someone (when you do) actually makes them keener for you.

I know that desperation is unattractive, but i think there is nothing wrong with being keen; letting a person know you actually like them.

The part that confuses me is, so if im holding off for 3 days making you believe im not interested – and you are also going by the 3 day rule – we are both going to assume that each other doesnt care or isnt thinking about the other.

again i say there are no rules and no excuses to this dating game – you either want or you dont – you can make up a 100 excuses for why that person is not suited to you, career, not ready, not your type, clash of personalities etc …

… but none of these matter when you meet the right person, because it will be 50 / 50 all the way and itll happen so very easily and with no rules.

thats my take and im sticking to it. I dont play the stupid games of this shallow 20th century mix mash of guidance from random apathetic media sources which are screwing up girls and boys alike with their take on a shallow existance

and now for something completely different

this is what i think of reality…

DATING RULES ??

after reading a blog by a random NewYork girl, i came to this conclusion:

there are NO RULES TO DATING

we are all different MALE OR FEMALE

I like funny girls and i dont want you to “shut the fuck up” ( not my words ) on a date and if you did, id get the wrong idea – id get the impression you didnt like me.

..and since when is complimenting someone a bad thing, if you feel the urge to tell a man or women they are great.. DO IT !

It comes down to 2 WORDS – ” BE REAL “

If the person you are dating cant dig that, then its not for you.. move on.

One persons DATING RULES are not effective for everyone.

I cant help but think there are women and men out there who write for TOXIC SHALLOW magazines and internet sites who are twisting and destroying the way a person sees dating… since when did the word ‘DATE’ become a bad word ?

DATE = a social arrangement … jeez.. meeting with someone to have some fun together before you both get hit by a truck.. WHAT  A CRIME…sinister or what!

as far as rules to dating go… no no no.. there are NONE!  Advice YES… but RULES NO

and Ive always believed that advice was something we try out on others to see if it worked.

the BEST and LONGEST relationships ive had , had no rules

get OUT THERE and BE YOURSELF..relax.. FUCK THE RULES

NOT COOL

After being so good for weeks, saving money, health and mind – this week it all went wrong and on a week, where i wish i was myself.

Im starting to come back down to earth now after drinking for 3 days straight, not just a little but alot

Thursday nite drunk – Friday day hungover – Friday nite drunk – Saturday day hungover – Saturday nite drunk – Sunday hungover …which brings us up to date now Sunday nite and im feeling slightly normal.

That person that knocks back 6 sambucca shots and lots of whisky isnt me, im not high, careless with a loose mouth… but some people who meet me might think iam, its not me.

My real personality comes out when im me, my names David and im real.

When i drink, i dont go round and see my family and spend time with them – i have 6 brothers, 1 nephew, 1 neice and an amazing Mum .. and i dont see enough of them.

Real fun for me is going to see a great band, watching a great movie or comedys, spending time with amazing people who are interesting and creative.

I love to sit on my laptop, create characters, animate them, make music, play guitar, be stupid, act ridiculous, paint canvas, make clothes, go urban biking with my iPOD playing my favorite music real loud.

so why do i waste it all by getting so out of myself… i dont like that feeling and i could feel myself having to ” have a drink ” just to feel normal again … im never going to be at the point where i forget what feeling normal is like.

 Tomorrow i get up, brush myself off and try not to fall off again

WOW! x100

I just finished watching the rest of a BBC triple DVD called ” THE BLUE PLANET ” all about what lives in the water, one subject it touched was Blue Whale migration patterns.

Since the Blue WHale is enormous, the ones one film were the size of 2 BUSES in length and weight more.. it was amazing! the Blue WHale the biggest known mammal in the worlds waters….

 …so i had an idea to go on a Blue Whale hunt on google Maps – where the world is mapped by satellite – unfortunetly, most of the far out ocean is not mapped … only a slice of the coasts.

Blue Whale migration is up and down the West coast of US, along near California – San Diego.

I got some photos, check it out… i stayed on Google maps for 3 hours that nite, its amazing fun …

those are DOLPHINS!!! have u ever seen so many, its MAD

What Aberdeen needs NOW!

SEINFELD + MUPPET BABIES ?

MYSPACE the GREATEST ?

Could MYSPACE be the greatest communcation, learning and collaborating tool the world has ever known… i think so.

As creatives …. we feed off each other, we interest each other, we see each other progress, we enjoy each others ART = be it music, graphic, video or writings and more

we are on the edge when it happens, before anyone knows = no one tells us what is entertainment, we decide … not the TV, RADIO or CORPORATE Press

I know some people on my friends list arent who they appear to be, they are actually members of media companies looking for new ideas, stealing and borrowing…

so beware, that the hot girl or boy who poses as a creative… could actually be a member of an extremely twisted advertising / marketing company

seem bizarre ? not at all I think

all of us together are the most powerful media company ever… each with a different talent.

☻☻♥☺Oh WOW, thats just what i was thinking!!

Offended by Muslim fashion ?

Its getting colder now, and winter is on its way.. i will be fashionably accessorsing with a scarf around my neck and lower chin… and when it gets very cold…

 ill wrap it around my face… got a problem with that Jack ? blow it out your ass beef head 

Is this or is this not a free world … well at least its supposed to be.

We wear what we want, look above to Marilyn Manson; i have no problem with what they are wearing – and if you do, then surrender your own personal fashion choices because you dont deserve freedom to dress yourself.

Jack Straw, what exactly is your motive here ?

Are you trying to make Muslims more pissed off than they already are ? by pointing at them and insulting what they wear !

Id expect comments like that at school when i was a kid, but um from an adult and a person in active government ?.. WTF dude

Muslims want to wear head scarfs, they should wear them… it doesnt matter if its inpractical FOR YOU!!!

..same could be argued that, a skater kid wearing baggy jeans and a long thick chain draped from them is impratical… but who the hell are you, to tell them dress another way… same goes for people with lip rings, nose rings, toungue studs – whatever!… Impractical they may be, but its an individuals choice to dress themselves…

hey JACK, is your Mother still dressing you ? i reckon so

STOP causing trouble you right wing NAZI shits

Best video ive ever seen in my life

I loved this

Monday holiday, Tuesday blues ?

dont worry, push all that to one side and watch this clip… it will change your frown upside down

his name is ” Little Superstar “

How come ?

How come when you are ill, you want everyone to know it or maybe thats just me.

Theres a horrible flu / virus whatever it is, it going around – alot of people i know have it… mine peaked today and i completely lost my voice, which was a weird sensation to wake up and not be able to make a squeak.

U know the rest, sore heads, pains all over in your neck  and back  … but a few days ago when the virus was kicking in, i started getting piercing pains in the back of my thigh..so bad that it paralysed my leg and id clench my teeth together.. it lasted for 10 seconds.. and happened for 2 days at intervals, weird as hell.

Listen to me, why on earth would you want to know about me being ill… yeesh…

anyway heres something better

THE BABY OPIUM MASTER : dont enter his den, you will forget yourself

Female Beach Volleyball

a real sport ?

nah come on, fit tanned girls on a beach in the sunshine..in tight fitting tops and bottoms… the smaller the better… slapping each other on the ass as they hug after a score!

Personally, i think these guys are great athletes…

To think, people accuse me of being gay because i dont like football

yO this aint no sport, ITS TORTURE!!!… i cant watch it… i really cant

BEST RAVE EVER EVER EVER !!! watch

To a dear friend

I dont know if this will appear inappropriate or not, but as far as im concerned this is my blog and my thoughts and feelings… so i believe its right.

This weekend a friend of mine and yours,  Nicky, died in a house fire.

He was an amazing guy, he was hilarious and i had many good times along with him and other friends.

I have been shocked and numbed by what happened.. and the whole event has hit me hard, and it has come at a time when things for me are not that great either.

Im at a point of deep reflection and recovery, trying to change my life and get some self-asteem back.

This event has made me realise even more so that its time to really start living, because this could have been anyone, me or you, a friend or family member… its made me think its time to make some changes.

God Bless you Nicky, see you at the real party some day x